Billie_Dakota

Horray, i think i came to a conclusion on what to do about my previous commented post. I chose just to ignore the arisen situation and make it more abundantly clear to the individual that if it doesn't stop then i would be forced to take measures on a global scale of doom. So other then that nothing new to complain about... haha i know sometimes its a random rant here and a random happy time moment but i think I need to get back on this journal more... its very nice to rant and clear my head and not to mention .. others that get laughs from what i spurt about.

To most of you this post wont make any sense ... but its going to help me.... so sorry if its vague but its a vented post...


OMG ... shut up your so fucking selfish ,, its always all about you and I've gotten to the point in which my head wants to explode from the raw annoying that fills the air once you speak .... take my life now or give me earplugs... I don't know how much more i can take of it .. i'm on the verge of doing something stupid and i don't know if i can hold it in much more. I'm good person i know... I've been told i have the patience of Mother Teressa. But if i let these feelings out i would surly destroy my opponent from the inside out... But i will do what i can to keep my cool. I will calm down i just need to think about how i am going to handle it so for today i am going for a ride out in the woods by myself to think about what needs to be done to confront this situation... so wish me luck

Well things have seemed to turn out quite well for me today i got a call from the BP gas station down the street a ways. So i have an interview for a potential part time... i haven't decided yet on if i want it to be during the day or night yet... but i would be willing to do either.. So paws crossed once again on this.. i hope it works... the feelings of loneliness should soon dwindle if it works out ... other then that nothing much happened today .. other then i made a really nice breakfast this morning... Scrambled eggs with bacon and cinnamon sugar toast ...and for the inside joke.. with special sauce haha. Well i should get some sleep and take a shower and get ready for tomorrow got a big day ...

OMG it really has been that long... i didn't even remember my log in and password.. lol had to check my emails.

Well i'm assuming most of you know ... I am currently living in Wisconsin with Blazger and Frost.. for those of you who know them, there sweet hearts. The reason being for this is I am on a "personal self discovery" mission... It's along story on how i got there but that's what I'm doing with myself at the moment and maybe for a while to come. I know I'm not exactly one of the brightest marbles in the bag but i am doing what i can to get by at the moment. My current plan is to get back on my own two paws and make a grownup out of me. I came to this conclusion when i was threatened with an internal nuclear explosion of emotions that sent me into a frenzy. So on this maiden voyage of my own self exploration i search for the side of me that will awaken the realization that the only way to solve a problem is to do it yourself. I know it sounds harsh but some how it sounds right in my head. But so far out on this open sea of turmoil and self regret i have come across the friends i have ever so grown far away from. So by taking them aboard and setting sail once again i hope to conker this new world on my own and show the other half of me that i am not the loser and disgusting, revolting, lower being i once was. So wish me luck and safe travel i am sure I will need it for the storm clouds are starting to rear there ugly heads once again.

Caution before you enjoy, really hot Beverage

Wow I know this is what like almost 10 days late but I was just wanting everyone to know that I have been to it and back unfortunately...


But to get back to the topic at hand ..uuummm.. how to put this in the nicest context that I can but this MFF BLEW CHUNKS ALL OVER ORPHAN CHILDREN. I am USUALLY the one person in the world with all of the energy of Hammy with an energy drink, but this Con was one of the first that there was nothing to do ...now I know there are those of you that think differently and I am sure that you could read one of there blogs instead. But the only thing that happened to catch my interest happened to be the Scuba furs panel. Only because a few months before MFF i got my certification from my Maui vacation. I mean sure there were tones of people there but one of the hardest things furs have trouble with is meeting new people. Admit it..if you say no you lie .. I met no one new that I haven't already talked too. But it was nice seeing alot of them in person XD... But still for some odd reason it seems like everything happened really late to me ...and things didn't open until later on in the day. Then the complete shittier on top of that was the fact that the artist ally thing..with the whole lotto thing for position was way uncalled for because people still sat in the hall way to draw so it made no since. Hell i got tons of people asking me for badges even thought I never signed up for artist ally once... but still the 2 ranting was at the con before..and uncle guy was way to drunk to even talk most of the time... and the construction of the suits was lame ... hell I get better tips from Dora the explorer...ha ha...
Now the theme was god awful... Now how is it that they can pick a theme like pirates and not expect people to go swinging swords and scabbards.. and then yell at them for doing it if you ask me they should pick something calm and decent that no ones has to go down to the security center XD I mean seriously. Well now that i have that out of the way let me tell you the bad things... the hotel this year was way out of the usual ..usually it was crowed and this year everyone seemed to go to there hotels and not be around as much, so no one was really there to talk to... now for the good things...umm the fact that the con sweet was absolutely amazing..on a scale of 1 to 10 the con sweet this year got a 13.
Well other then that I met some amazing people for the first time ...Brian wear who is absolutely adorable. Miles Black wolf and his boyfriend Serge, Rilest and his boyfriend Angelo, Steel, Ferret,Tricky,Gray wolf, and a long time friend Likeshine.. and Tiberius..

other then that My family who I would still like to get to know and others who I have forgotten there names..but they will come to me...

well no more ranting for me I have badges to do 30..and 6 full commissions before next MFF ha ha childs play but still I have to focus..so have fun reading this and be prepared for my next blow off XD

I just got back from my 4 day weekend up in chicago with some of my best friends in the world.
I so didn't want to leave, well because I live 3 hours away from um. I miss um already. (sniffs)
But I really had fun and I so can't wait to go back I had a great Blast. I do have to thank Blazger, Frostcat, Steel, and Rilest for all of the time we spent together. Just to let you 4 know it will be forever placed in the great time folder in my storage. Oh and to mouse if he is reading this I am mad at Va jay jay. He has been going on and on and on and on see stop it you stupid baka. AAAAHHHHHHHH.... he needs to leave I should have left him with you..... It's all your fault XD. But still I can't wait to get back up there and see Feret again. It was so nice of him to invite us over to his house and share with me the very imaginitive world that is D&D. oh and P.S. on that you still coulden't have lived without me XP. But Hopefully the next time I will have some more time with you all will be at MFM which I so can't wait for.I know this is getting long and this is all like BBBOOOYYAAAAA.....damn it go away..... Mouse i can't take it. but still its late here its 2am right no so I think I am going to call it a night after all i do need my beauty sleep..... Night all you sexy people out there...= ^ - ^ = < ^ -=- ^ >

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